i dont understand mothers. they're.. argh. u know what word i'm gonna use anyway. so yeah. whatever.

who the f do they think they are. yes, they brought us up. but so? are they gonna bother us for the rest of our lives? com'on, i need to grow up. i need to learn, to experience, so i wun make mistakes in the future. all you ever do is to scold me. i wont learn at all! by scolding, all you do is make me angry, and also more eager to do whatever you're stopping me from doing now when i've got the freedom. its plain obvious i'll dye my hair and peirce my ear after i'm free from you. and you know why? its because you refrained me from doing so now. its you. its your fault. absence makes the heart grow fonder. you dont let me know, in the future, i'll over do it. i will. i'll kill to do.

and sry to the guys. rly like topsy turvy today. mood like swingy, and feeling sick.

finally felt better at ard 6 plus. but kinda late to find u all le.

so i went to find my yr and sam lee, and watched bourne ultimatum. okay la. nice show. pass.


a lil conve~

hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
haha
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
IF i can resist and control myself from shouting
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
i would be much happier
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
who cares about unfairness
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
my family has the most unfairness in all the families i;ve seen
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
which father openly says he likes one child and hates the other?
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
which father spends a few thousand on one son's golf set without any complaint and doesnt even bother bout the other
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
which father buys 3 ipods for one son and doesnt even know that the other son doesnt even have one?
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
which father doesn't mind driving one son the sch from pasir ris to bishan everyday but complains when the ther son wants him to send once a week from pasir ris to east coast
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
dunno? i tell you. my father
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
and nope. when he scold, no one talks
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
he asks qns, every one says yes
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
no crying, or he'll scold more
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
even when u rly gna break down, u must hang in there just to save ur ass
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
thats my father for u

...


SHEL says:
but hadnt u tried asking her why? or ur dad.

hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
haha. given up. no point.
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
thats why u dun understand my family lah
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
there's this unspoken rule. whatever is said from my parents, its final. no qns asked.
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
at all.
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
dun even think of thinking why or how
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
juz shut the fuck up and do, whether u know its right or wrong
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
if u know its wrong, juz dont bother correct them, juz do it wrongly and let them see that is wrong.
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
when they realise its wrong, dun correct them, just wait till they find out for themselves
hopes are meant to get you high, before making you give them up. says:
then juz be an idiot and continue lo

sigh. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.


cut my hair today! RARR. dunno la. its not not-nice, not nice also. GRRH.

so. went to pray at bugis there. haha. din noe what was going on. juz.. haha. see what they do, then follow lo. but we din do the shake shake thingy. quite fun eh. hahah. shake shake shake. a-bon bon.. LOL.

then we walked to eat dou jiang you tiao again. hahaha. i think we go there so many times the dou jiang you tiao see us oso scared. cfm eat them. okay rubbish. haha. but not bad lah. can eat lah. haha. pass pass.

then wnt paradiz. SOME ONE BEAT OUR PHTOHUNT RECORD!! BOOHOO. by 3k. hahaha.

BUT GUESS WHAT!

WE BEAT THAT FELLA BACK!!! WHAHAHAXZ!!! DMC01 PWNZ UR ASSZX W0RHHZ. LOL LOL.

k lah. then after that went J8 for movie. freak. no more horrors pls. Horrors are meant to be a once in a life time kinda thing you know? watch once in ur life time is enough.

then decided to take 53 back. but guess what! the last 53 left tt bus stop like 15mins b4 i reached it. so i looked ard and saw that there's a 58, which goes to pasir ris interchange. and immediately after looking away from e board, i saw an empty 58 with e lights off. and i thought, shit, is the board like fake? why that bus no lights! last bus gone ah. lols. was f-ing worried lah. but nvm, u noe me ma. COOL eh. hahah. so waited and a 58 indeed came. so went up and then bus. omg freak lah. throughout the entire journey, less than 5 ppl accompany me on the bus lah! 2 go down, 1 come up. 1 go down, 2 come up. grrh. so scary. ahah. and finally. took cab home from PR interchange. haha.

the end. boohoo. dunno eh. like these few days nthn interesting to blog le. sigh.


hahaha. haven blogged for the past few days cos nthn much happened except for stuffs that happen online, like stupid msn convesations that make me ROFL, LMAO, LOL, LTIROFD(laugh till i roll on floor dying >.<).

today. chionged maple abit. should have used 2x exp card lah. wasted. waste my time. rarr. after that last min met someone out for dinner. and came home lo. hehe.

u noe ah. although i do know that our school has ended, but some how, i keep thinking that its not the hols yet. haha. i dunno why leh. like, sch ended but not yet hols. LOL. rarr. someone scratch my brain pls.

thoning tmr. and watching dead silence. i dont wanna watch! ahh. frreeaaaakkk. so bloody scary can. i dun mind paying $8 to hide behind blanket okay! walaowalaowalao. omgomgomg.

i suddenly forgot who are in our class noe. hahahaha. SUDDENLY. only remember.. no no. its actually, forgot 1 grp of ppl. haha. till i i read a tiny comic which said "Fuck" and my mum asked me if i wanted a "pAU" ornot. HAHAHA. at the same time can! LOL LOL. if u dont get it, then nvm(:


boo. today is such a sucker day. nothing to do at all. sigh. i'm stuck at home. sigh sigh sigh.

so in love with these 2 songs.

wait for you

and

save me from me







hellooo. i'm back from the chalet. hahaha. it was a bloody hell of fun.

main stuffs that happened on the first day was the mahjong scare. LOL. you see. we guys were cycling all the way to tampines. from ALL THE WAY IN Aloha, to FAR FAR tampines. cycling ma, so of course far. then just as we were at out last turn before reaching tamp, the girls called and said there were 4 tiles of the same kind missing. so they tought got stuff lah. u noe, stuff as in... stuff. yes, stuff. so we cycled like maniacs back okay! we took more than 30mins to GO there, but less than 8mins to COME BACK. wtf. RARR. and when we stepped in, our legs just collapsed. booh. and after much clarification, we realised that they counted it wrongly. 4 times. LOL.

hahaha. funny lah. they all. but also dunno. they counting wrongly seem like the best, and most logical decision. haha.

so after that, yeap. had tons of fun. had bbq, a lil swimming for me and alot for the rest of the guys who i-dont-know-why loved the cold water. brrr. played soccer and hand ball. haha. fun fun. and of course dai di too. and i learnt bridge! haha. suhui taught a few of us. lols.

then had some cycling in the morning. and we walked out to white sands on the second night. and had an emo night. boohoo.

haha. then there was this water bomb attack from fir, gerald and me. lols. we bought a foam spray, a string spray and water bombs! haha. but we like half fail can! grrh. some of the bombs didn't burst. hahaha. so they wanted to attack back. okay. so drama. LOL. and BALLESS fir hid inside a cupboard. LOL. hahaha. *hands up on head and shouts "LOSER!!" thats you!*

eh. realised we din play indian poker. SHYT. lols. i WANNA LEARN that game. see? told you i wasn't racist. hahaha.
edit: eh! u all played when i was happily in lala land! lols. ROAR!!

fir is emo
gerald cant emo
alec is the BOSS
shumay is violent. haha. super, bitey mouse. cant believe what you did in the game. THE game. lols.
liying is lying. again. haha. nolah. she was v kind to lend me her super good conditioner. haha. thanks thanks.



and some one was being quite a FAILURE bustard by trying to be on both sides at a time in order to be in both side's good shoes. whatthemamafuckerxiaonanren. wanna be bustard so easy. still can fail. sigh.

and upon reaching home and bathing, i juz lay on my bed and snored from 11am to 9pm. whoo. dead tireded.

and i realised something when i woke up. i actually do miss my group of friends when i open my eyes. i'm actually looking forward to meeting them. its nice. a nice, nice feeling.


HAHAH. i told u the muttons were funny. LOL

they came up with this joke.

person1: i heard Man U changing sponsor noe.

person2: HUH?! really?! to who??!

p1:oh they from AIG right? now changing to Tampon.

p2: BUT WHY!! why why why!!

p1: cos they're going through a bad period.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. WAD THE HELLL. I LAUGH TILL WNA DIE.

and as i was telling Shel abt sugar sammy juz now, she was like "what what??! sugar cane?!!" HAHAHA. sugar paccy, super sammy, super paccy. SUGER CANE!! OWN. lols.


BOO EXAMS ARE OVER OVER OVERRRRR!!!

hahahaha. yay. done. haha. MUTTONS ARE FUNNY CAN! lols. sry. listening to them now. LOL.

yep. there's chalet tmr. yay. listing all the stuffs to bring sia. haha.

k lah. happy mood siaa. whooo. go chiong maple le. LOL.

i feel something is missing but. dunno leh. dunno what izzit. haha.

we're so gna play a fool during chalet. haha. we dont know yet, but what we DO know is that, someone's gonna get hurt REALL bad ;DDDD


hahahahahahahahahaha.

























when i lay down,
and my eyes closed,
i enter my world,
i see myself,
in pieces, not whole,
in halves an quarters,
close to shatters, bits and pieces,
i feel alone,
one by myself,
i try to find the reason why,
and all i see,
and think, and cry,
i see the past, the part i hate,
the part where nothing went right,
the part where the earth crumbled,
the part where words didn't seem to matter,
the kiss we had before flew dear,
the laughter, the smile,
the love and joy,
all being the fun we had,
the memories we loved,
turned into fear,
rejection and pain,
intesity enough to kill a soul,
with the heart stil a-beating,
you were there, just a second ago,
but it all had to end,
i loved you,
but i dont know,
when went wrong,
where and why,
you couldnt care, any more anyless,
you just wanted to see the last of me,
and so i left, tearing and lost,
i hurt myself,
to leave you,
for if i stayed on,
i'll hurt even more,
to see you sad,
to see tears every in your eyes,
i'd rather bear the pain,
of you and me,
to see you happy,
and be free,
but i'll have to take the blame,
the sorrow, the lost,
and the mental torture,
nothing of which i was ever prepared for,
like a puppy who's owner just abandoned,
my home's gone, my soul's lost,
i swear stabs through my heart wouldve felt better,
i open my eyes,
tis all a moment of thought,
somethings will never go away,
even after it has ended,
its just like jail,
because you'll just end up in another jail after leaving one,
society, that is,
care, love and concern, thats mine,
i blink,
i look around,
yet again its pitch dark,
i dont see you, i dont see anyone,
i think yet again,
who do i love,
i ponder, no one answers,
do i not have an answer,
or is the answer wrong,
or there simply isnt a need to answer,
and maybe,
thats why,
it has the same answer as the question,
who loves me,
or who loved me,
or who will ever love me,
a single tear fall,
i'm holding the remaining gallon,
i think of you once again,
my will's lost, my fight's over,
my feeling's rundown,
over times repeatedly,
i lost my heart,
my mind,
i lost my life,
for you were it.


dunno why lah. i really feel emo once again. my life is yet again so empty. lifeless. i'm sick and tired of it. i dont like the life i;m having now.

today when alec talked about his problems, i wanted to cry and rly just break down. but i dont know. probably its because time has passed, and i've forgotten some parts of it. but still. the most painful memories still lay deep, embedded firmly yet in my heart. the wound has healed, but the scar holds the memory of all that has happened.

i know what and how your are alec. it happened to me. thats why when u said it, i suddenly felt a chill down my spine and i jolted. you dont wanna hurt her, but you still want her by your side. and she dont know and dont really care. fuck, it hurts.

argh. and its the night yet again. alone. even in the day lah. i do have friends around me now, but deep down inside, i'm still silently alone. i'm still in shatters. sigh.

i wanna cry wanna cry wanna cry.

i'm not shaun, ever again. and i will never be. cos i know it. i've changed. after that very incident. for the rest of my life. it will never, ever be the same. ever.


this is the post a few days ago. haha. still think got a lot of eventful things happen that day. LOL. so funny. hahahaha.

went shumays house to study today.

we were more serious lah. but still joke joke and lac. lols. and i juz finished sugar sammy. HAHAHAHA. thats idiot. he's so funny. haha. got addicted to it for awhile and watched till like. sigh. hahaha.

things we learnt today.

- how to ROFL
- pronounce LOL, ROFL and LMAO.
- stupid exercises and weird ways of walking on ur knees
- the chart of jelly beans.
- its flavours
- how to become a professional jelly bean taster.
- the cinamon flavour actually SUCKS. although its oh-so-sweetly called cinamon. EW. but okay lah. wun die from it. hahahaha.
- shumay's mum looks like her. and her dad doesn't.
- fir ksed me on that.
- gerald didnt even bother.
- he was sadder that he din have his wrestling.
- yomamma, boiling point and ripley's believe it ornot still rocks.
- its hard to wake fel up.
- its very hard.
- very very hard.
- but very fun :D whahaha.
- tickles feet.
- fir and gerald are scared of the ninja turtles. no, they're just normal terrapins. they were like having a war with them. can you imagine? 2 semi-grown up guys. jumping back and forth like dodging bullets. and trying to get within a meter of the the dumb terrapins who dont know what the hell is going on with these 2 stupid giants jumping around like freaks(: hahaha. NO BALLS SIAAA.

oh. yah. the terrapins were in a container. yes, ENCLOSURE. UNESCAPABLE. 2 GUYS. JUMPING AROUND. DODGING. OUTSIDE. you get it. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

to gerald and fir, there goes ur rep! hhaha.

yup. thats it. cfm. we learnt ALL those. alot eh! hehe. but no FOM.

and we ate pizza hut for the 2nd day straight. bought the fondue thingy today. haha. nice okay!

and..!!

TWENTYTYTYTYYY DUMBLETS!!

omfgwthccbknnbbbqygfywgvbcscvoao1111!!

whoooooooooo. hoooooo.

fel din eat leh. she said she DONT LIKE.

I WONDER WHY :DDDD

yea. so i haven finish my revision :( but im gg to sleep lah. suan le. study, but haven revise. sigh. die lah. =/







this a new blog. wanna have a taggie and be able to link ppl. i like livejournal, but sigh. all good things will always lack out in one way or another. so i guess, lalalalaa.

the prev one will probably be used as a personal one where the posts shall be private and confidential. so u all CANNOT READD. nane nane pooh pooooh =P

boo.