BOOM went my $180 maple equipment. hahaha. wth. i could have been richer :x

oh wells *deletes maple*

back to reality. maple gave me a 2 day orgasm when i managed to scroll the claw. but unfortunately, orgasms will all die out. haha.


wth. i cant believe i'm laughing. i totally feel like crying for god damn sake. fuckedup.


.uoyknaht ,doGraed

backtomaple.scrolledaniceclawyty.japdramassomehowattractme.thoughistillhateitwhenthequalitysuckslikeshit.andi'mtypingwithoutspacing.howthehelldoyouhavethepatiencetoevendeciphersomuch.areyouasboredasiam?

hm. life is boring as usual. lalala:)


i dont miss vans.

i dont miss hid.

i dont miss corne.

i dont miss desree.

i dont miss rus.

or eden too.




i miss theMentals. fucking lot. what is your problem. what the fuck is it.


Absolute Boyfriend is really nice. haha. although it gets irritating sometimes. like when she doesnt want to simply juz kiss the robot idiot. that would save alot of trouble, you know.

other than that, its really sweet. sigh.

when will love ever come?
LOL.

hmmm. gonna do fw now i guess. needa finish it up. and then thr's dma which i cant think of a SONG! argh. this sucks.

and then thrs weekly om quiz, etc etc study etc etc.

shit life i have.
oh, how good would it be if i had someone to talk to about all these.

sigh :)





lol. juz realised my colours are boring. bleh.


ONE JUICY BABYYY!

AND A SECOND!!

OMG! THRS THREEEEE!




lol. messs.



boring weekend. did nothing.







really.











have been watching absolute boyfriend. wheee.







i dont know. i seem to like jap dramas.











fine. i do like them. grrh.











anyways. shopping.











GAP spree. 2 formal, 2 casual collar, and 1 crew neck.











AND a TONNNEEE of sweeet stuffs. :DDDD


sigh. project due dates are drawing incredulously near. wb competition is coming up soon. termbreak, aka time-conned-by-the-wonderful-school-that-a-break-is-meant-to-be-used-to-study is coming. random stuffs, chalet(i hope), random few meetings, openhouse event. thats about it that i can think of.

the other part of my life. ho wells. how do i put this. haha. i'm happy yet sad. happy that everyone is happy as it is. but yet, sad that it isnt.. whatever. you dont need to and want to know :)

hoho. whatdo you know.


lets just call this a phase of life, with a pinch of salt, and a duration of a month to recuperate, and this would be called memory.


i'm talking without head or tail, tired. i read through my what i just type and i really dont understand myself. LOL.

nighties.


hohoho. the end =)


this part of life is like a storybook's chapter where by its the confrontation, the 2 sides are hiding behind barrels and containers, with paths crossing each other, threading stealthily, reloading ammunition, and stuff. its discription, not process.

therefore, i shall only tell the story closure, and not the entire detail less its worthly. mark this, cos i will continue here.


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other than that, i'll post up my fw article when i've finally cut it from 900 to 700. and then i'll rewrite and post up a no word limit essay. wheee. loving it.


nights. tired~

the 2mins conve just relighted my blown out candle of the day. thanks.


happy birthday. you're 13 already, please act like one! hahaha.





yummy. lobster, lamb pie and some cheese filled pasta in a wonderful cream sauce.

more seafood. interesting how they open oysters up. looks super tiring.

nothing less expected from my sister. 1st the satay..

then a spoon..

yes, her hand too..

haha! you're a bit slow on this!


lovely.


when a song touches your heart so sharply it feels as if the lyrics slit your tongue in halves.

when you simply dont know what to do at all. for the umteenth time, it repeating this same routine over again like a tape recorder, which captured only the pain and agony, and sorrow and distress.

when you know somethings you totally should not, and you have somethings you would want to say but could not.



when you see him and her. a him and your her.

when the sound that cripples the toughest heartbeat within, is the silence that comes by when the heart shatters into dust.

when you are unsure.

when you have no answer.

pending; you're left guessing. hoping and hanging.



when the lyrics feel like gold; not only in value and sincerity of how true it is, but also the obsessive weight pulling lower than ever.


sigh.


well, school is school. so i guess its fair if i said that i am not enjoying it.

hmm. moving on to life.

its confusing. i swear. my feeling sway by the minute, off and on, just like how the waves crash onto the shore - it reaches a new high, not before crashing to a devastating low.

and its not i want it that way. oh, why oh why. why does it have to happen to me. is it really that bad, am i really that senseless and empty that such useless and rubbish thoughts fill my mind? dont i have anything better to fill my existance with?

and to top it off, jus to let all those people who think that the book "the game" is a funny, bad ass playboy book which only teaches you how to pick up girls, you are pretty much two thirds wrong. basically, from page 2xx to 47x, its all about his tragic life and how everything came crashing down.

so if you ask me for a rough overall of this book, no, its not a hilarious jackass ho's-and-bro's book. its sucidal, its depressing, its devastating, its condemned, its a punishment.

its a book i dont want to finish, but i have to. its a book i will never want to read ever again, but once is a must.

what set me thinking about all these stuff regarding my phailure life was feature writing today. the task was to write a 6xx-7xx feature about something in your life. something that would be publishable in the sunday times, something 350,000 people would pick up and read from the first hooker to the last caption.

it may be about trends, opinions, hates and favs, anything. anything at all in your life.


and i had nothing.


hey no, dont get me wrong. it wasnt just a quick overview of how my life has turned to shreds. i didnt flash through my memory as if the camera shutter just went off. i though really deep.


and nothing came out.


its was only then did i realise, that i'm becoming a robot. something with no difference from anyone else. school, home, school home. there isnt a filler in between that says best friends dinner, or my dearest's love.

incidently, it could have been replaced by something called 'mrt train rides'.


and oh yes. trust me on that, i even suggested writing a the story on my '1hr journey to school everyday'.


and yes, it IS that bad.


and so now i think. do i want a soulmate, or am i finding justa filler. is it gonna be an episode, or just another commercial? will this thriller lead to the movie, or is it gonna be pushed aside due to lack of everything necessary?

what is going on. where am i now. is this my life. how am i coping. what am i doing. why is it like this.






i'm beginning to disagree that everything has an end.



i've already crossed it.


sometimes when all you hope is for everything to go well and nothing goes wrong, it turns .. hm.

this is confusing the shit out of me.


hm. came back from camp this morning. din stay till 3pm cos, I DIN BRING ANY CLOTHES TO CHANGE/BATHE. lol.



so while the rest smelled nice and looked clean, i was still in my unchanged tee.



rawr. stinkiesss.



hm, okay. i dont think i stink( i hope). but i sure felt sticky.







anyways, was tired, slept, and woken up to help my sis with her photoshop homework. LOL. and here it is :D





hahahaha. 3hrs- brainstormed for ideas, took the random pictures, and set down to work(:



alrights. thats about it. thr's om quiz, om project which fir hasnt sent the ppt slides, mmr proj, dma which i haven thought of a plan(!argh!), and, is thr any more? sigh. tmr's busy. wonder how am i gonna do them.


andand. my w910i 's back! haha. love it. but i guess i'll most likely sell it and get another phone. hmmm. any recommendations? the LG one seems nice. hahaha.





alrights. lovees~

sigh. i think i really am falling for you.


to some, devouring that irresistably sinful peice of cake may be happiness. to other, it may be when your dearest say those 3 magical words. then there's owning the latest Gallarado, or meeting the pop sensation you worship, from just plainly survivng the cyclone, to building your own successful empire. happiness, is all that is. happiness, is everything, everyone.
you know?
life sucks like fuck now.
but we dont achieve it. instead of the Spyder360, a cerfiro might be it. the piece of heavenly pastry might not be as worth it as the steamed bun next door. and sometimes, when you're the only on who made it through the storm, you find that you actually didn't want to be alive, without your loved ones.
i dont have anyone to talk to, anyone to smile to. when i just need someone, one person, to just be there.
and that's where our happiness changes. we accept less and be contented.
thats all i want.
everyone's had it. what's yours?
i hate being alone. i hate not having anything to do. i hate it when people have meetings and appointments and i dont. why?

i pondered. and i'd realise, that mine, from a dream of superfluous life filled with excitement and entertainment, after the key essence of time has been added to my portrait of life, the happiness i want, my happiness, is in fact, a life without any arguements, differences and 'end of relationships' with the people i know. as simple as that.
its tough living a life alone. when you're sad, you either write it down, or blog about it, or talk it out to the wall, or more likely than not, keep it inside. and it sucks. sooner or later, its breaking me down. why cant i find close friends? why are people like they are now? fake, untrustful, egoistic, and so many others. why cant i find someone, who will just sit down, and have a heart to heart chat. i love hearing stuffs too, not only ppl hearing mine out.

how happiness varies. even within one's self.

god damnit.


I HAVE JUST FINISHED NARUTO MOVIE 4.

okay not quite. blogger was throwing tantrums and not working just now, so off i went to bathe.


and now im back.


review of the movie? 4.5 out of 5 stars.

and i totally stand by my judgement.

twist was there, it was really hooked for the entire 90mins or so, the ending was nice, not abrupt, the touching part really moved.


i especially loved the part before the twist, the touching part. seriously, it left me awestruck, amazed yet touched at such a moment. though its all 2d and fake, but, it seriously is moving. shall not go into detail, but, really, it made most emotional flicks look like floppy shit.


guess it was the music. darned. and the voice [grrh. why do voices affect me so much].

blame the sounds. rawr.


oh btw, do you know, shaun likes girls with NICCEEE voices and NICCEEE hair. voice>eyes,nose,ear,etc.

RAH.



okays. it was nice. fullstop. oh btw, tues's over :D


wheeeeeeeee.

almost the middle of the week alr.
sigh. this cycle is repeating again. over and over again. sch, home, hoping for week the end, sch, home, weekend, sch, home, and yada yada.


and my sunburn is killing me. my nose has gotten all red again as it always does when i start peeling, and i'm back to being rudolph-y. *ehh. NO jokes about it, I TELL YOU!*


rawr. i doubt i will not be teased. bleh ><



okiiees. then. tmr. is. a. loooo.ooo.ooo.ng. day.


NiitExzZXzxzxzxzxxzx


just reached home. and was super in the blogging mode. so tada! here i am :D


anyways, read halfway thru the game alr. seriously, if you're reading it in a light hearted sense, its a wonderful book. but if you're those who's trying to mine gold out of mystical words, then, i'd suggest spending the time reading hitting the clubs instead. cos that would help more. i guess :/


hehe. he's a great writer. LOL.


alrights. aside from that. happy birthday TINGTING [shel]. i enjoyed myself too :D



so. actually, know what? i dont have anything to blog about. i just had the urge to type stuff out. *press press buttonnnnnsssssssssssssssssssssss*


bleh. tmr's tuesday. the 2nd worse day of the week. 10-5. grrh. [psst~ its not the duration, but the mod's are kinda, dry. other than that, :D the lecturers can be quite fun. heh.]


let's rank -

WORST

thurs [ walao. bth this day. can die 10x over. ]
tues [bad as well, but wont die. i suppose. ]

fri [ 8am please. crazy ah. even tho its only ONE 4hr tutorial, but, our butts get numb y'know. but the consolation is that it ends at TWELVE :D]
wed&mon tied.
[wed is fun. i've got gems, rock climbing, and the basic stuffs are few. tho the day IS long.
as for monday, well. who hates starting sch on a monday at 2pm?! wheee hohoho. ]

BEST




so there. i'm freakingshshh bored. bah.


and, i have given up on TKA, offically.

*fyi, TKA is TheyKissAgain, the 2 series of ISWAK(ItStartedWithAKiss)*


couldnt take epi 10, halfway.

its really getting stupid and retarded. i mean, she's really dumb and irritating. and that zhisu, grrh. imature and childish shit.



and hitman reborne abit, toot ah. hahaha. but oh well, still the starting, which is said to be still boring. hahaha. we'll see how.





i've absolutely no games to play. sigh. pissing me off. PLEASE SOMEONE RECOMMEND ME SOME!



hmm. have been reading The Game. its actually a book on how to pick up girls, etc.

however, after reading it abit, i felt that. the ways it mention are actually just simple ways to be more sociable. as in, i find the methods very everyday stuff.

its like, they can be applied for everyday when you meet new people or interact with your friends. well, except those lines that say things like, and then you bend over and kiss her on the cheek.

eh, wtv.


and honestly, i find myself doing/have done quite alot of whats been mentioned to make friends and interact, lol. just that i dont really realise it. hahaha.

like, confidence and stuff, dress decently, talk without mumbling, i guess, its obvious right?

then again, the book also suggests wearing daring outfits(which i also do sometimes :x), and other which i cant remember quite clearly.



oh well, who wanna pick up girls anyway? humph! *grimaces inside*


haha. study lah, idiot.

my 4.0 enthusiasm is getting weaker. grrrhhhhaaaaahhhrooooaaarrrr!


and maffees are the exact twin of the !mentals. oh, how i miss them. sigh :/


today has been the year's most WORTHWHILE, and ENJOYABLE day.

when its that good, you just dont need any fanciful words to discribe.



love the laughter. HAHAHAHAHAHA.


one way to spend my $300 pay.

- get a huge pacifier for my father so that he can just shut his trap. i mean, he shouts at EVERYTHING, with no rhyme or reason. go ahead, continue thinking that you still own the house and we have to at your very beck and call and that you are perfectly 100% right everytime. sooner or later, i hope mum will wake up and see what in the world is going on.

- get a ear amplification thingy for my mum. she's going deaf. seriously, talking to her is quite tiring cos you have to raise your voice, and YET, not make it sound like you're shouting.

- i need new mp3 earpieces/headphones. i dont have any at the moment. sobs. listening to some nokia head piece. grrh.

- get a new game lah. i'm seriously over maple. hate it!!!

- treat myself very wonderfully for a day :D haha. this has been my long time dream. one day in my life, i shall not bother about cost, about homework, about time, about ANYTHING, and just spend a day out, making myself happy all over. wahaha. wheee. sundaes, fried stuff, baked pastry, movies, arcade, more ice creams, cakes, pies, and a wonderful seafood/indian/chinese/steak buffet dinner. oooh-lalalaa~


there. best way to spend $300(maybe a teeny weeny little more).


off to get something to do. hmm. maybe watch some part1part2's. LOL.


i'm totally freaking pissed off right now. i swear i'm hating this shit.

i have three major problems bigger than a gazillion girl's pms is giving them. EFF-EUU-SEE-KAY THIS SHIT THR33 PROBLEMS.



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lol. that was 5mins ago. i swear im the happiest person on earth now. almost.

okay, not. i've juz had a nice occurance. haha. 3secs of happiness.


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hmmmmmmmmmmm. synopsis for the day (alec please read out loud the 1st word of this sentence :D)

mmr, I REACHED AT 7.40am. ALL OF YOU CAN BOW DOWN TO MEE! FWAHAHA. okay, dont.

then went to cca booth and loa-ed conB.

then went GEMS.

and rockclimbing. hahaha. FUNNNN SHITTTT.

lolsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. maffees are fun(:


wthwth. i'll laugh the moment i think of the hilarious stuffs that happened.



matas outing pleaseeeee. =(


and happy hatchday to sharon's sis. hahaha.

DONT WORRY, NO BEES WILL COME TO YOUR SUNFLOWER, SHARON. lolxzxzxzxxxzzz.


alrights. cya.