life's a chore. school's a bore. freakish arguments and debates and get along problems all over the place, after school everyone's off to their own smexy business, and poof. i ended up in a library today. shaun, library. totally. tells alot.

but hey there's wakeboard. sigh. what a consolement. i wait 168hrs everytime my session ends for the next one. and gawd, the half an hr isnt even enough! sigh.

my brother jus broke my num slipper. yes, its torn. and he's not admitting.

and, my mum jus broke her promise of buying me stuffs. AGAIN. much to no-one's surprise.

the only thing wonderful today was that, my aust friend msn-ed me again! it was the msn conve of my life! literally. she reminded me of almost EVERYTHING i did 10yrs ago. TEN. when i was SEVEN. gawd. and she said it as if it just happened yty. wonderful memory. sigh.

all the stuff we'd been through, haha. the love, the canning, the fear, the tears, the kisses and yada yada.

anyway.. we were talking abt anime porn b4 that. haha. cos my display pic was gaara, naruto. so somehow, she linked to anime and then anime porn. lol.

and so..

this is my life story. on all my years, my MOST unglam, malu, hopeless, stupidest moment. out on my blog. the internet. for everyone, anyone to see.

now, i'm scared of nothing.

have fun reading.

shauna's my fren(:
i'm shaun(:


<3 s h a u n a
do u still have that uber cool sticker machine?

whisper, cry, answer and lie.
GAWD

U REMEMBER THAT!

yeap;)

i din till i thought hard

i stuck it on my cupboard

:(

its still in sg i think

haah. REALLY?!

pink background

lols!!!

roses with green leaves

its a love heart wrealth<3

so sweet~

and ur love letter

that was funny

LOL.

i got scared

ahhhh

what did i write?!

i always get scared when i get these things

i love u on 3 sides

omgomgomg.

with the love heart cut out

:)

cant believe i did that

and u coloured it in:)

thank god i foget it alr. HAHAHA

omg. if not i;d be SUPER DUPER MALU NOW

rofl~

and u stuck it in my bag

and i asked u what u were doing

and u were like soo super aggro

u said i cant look at it till i get home

omgosh. dun remind meee

and i wanted to look

and u got angry

i was so scared of u

:P

gawd gawd. ahhhhhhhh

noooo

bahaaaa

and u remembered. ahhhh. why do u hv such a good memory.

AND THENNNNNNNN

AHHHHHH

rofl

nooooo!!!!

i duno~

:P

omgawd

u cried

no no no no!!!

:P

hahahah

did i 0.o

darn. again.

coz i didn give u coloured paper that this guy gave me

:P

omgawd

ahhhh

so paisehhhh

omgawd

ahh

rofl

relaxxx

i'm so deleting this msg history

10 years ago

thats ages ago~

i dont know how i remember these nitty gritty things

:P

god damned. i was freaking toot then. ahhhh

no..

u were adorable:P

hahaha. that was toot! lols.

rofl

and you were afraid remmeber.

yea

coz u might cry

ROFL~

AHHHH

rofl

:P

so its bcos of that! ahhhh

u had quite the temper

hahaha

:)

gawd. ii seriously never thought that you would remember any of these.

but now. AHHHHHHHH

lol

hmm

what else can i rememberr~

lol

shall i keep going:P

ahhhh

no! LOL

i seriously wonder how u even remmebered all those!

hahahahaahaha

i duno~

:P

u mean you can remember more??!:-O

;p

try me;)

omg

okok

say. hahaha

lol

ahhh. *pray its good*

we got caned in p1

DID WE??!

coz we had to go 2 a weird monkey chinese class

BY WHO??!
and the teacher was handing out our xizi books

is that xi zi

i dont know how to spell it

anyways

the bald one

XI ZI! OMG. HOLYNESS.

who always wore white

and u went to take it

haha.

coz he called u up

and he smacked u on the ass

and u cried

U CAN EVEN REMEMEBER WHAT HE WEARS??!

and everyone was jumping on the table

and u didn talk that lesson

caned??!

u sat in the corner

and looked out the window all teary

ohmygawd.

i tried to talk 2 u

but u were unresponsive

was i?/

mmm

HAHAHAHAHAH. oops.

and

lol

coz he was a crazy teacher

we werent set any work

and so i didn do xi zi

and so my mom checked my book

and saw that i didn do anywork

so she called ur mom

and ur mom said uve finished the book

and so i copped alota shit

:P

i tried to explain

but to no avail

coz u had done it

and there was no reason why i shouldnt have done it

:P

OMGAWD

U REMEMEBR

and u always did better in school than i

and i was always compared to you:P

soooooo bad for the self esteem:P

LOL

U REMEMEBR

of course

omg

i so rememebr the xi zi incident alr. ur part of it.


hahah

hahahhaha

mmm:)

i was kinda bad then too. heh. sabo u. LOL.

but hell! it was fun ;D

rofl

i rejected ur love

must have struck a cord in you:P

rofl~

THAT WAS YEARS AGO

OHMYGAWD

ahhhh

rofl

im jk

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. i'm terribly shocked now u noe.

i dunno how to face you when ur back here.

whyyy

rofl

be normal

:P

it was ages ago

u were 7

i really dont even rememebr the slightest of those stuff anymore. till you said.

7 year olds are allowed to be immature

:P

ahhahahahahaaaaaa

i dont remember stuff i do either;P

HAHAHA. yup.

maybe its a conscious choice to FORGET

:P

it might have been a dark period in ur life:P

YES it definitely was. heh. if it were you, i think ud forget it too. hahah

rofl

nooo

:P

i remember

i lied to this boy

in k2

that i was leaving to australia

K2??!!!

well

we were suppose to

he was in love with me

omg

and i didn like him

rofl~

and now i remember it slightly.

and i also remember

i chased a guy in the bus

in nursey

well i was 5

whatever~

i chased him

and kissed him

he didn like me much

:(

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

your first kiss was given away at a young and tender age of five. wheee.

rofl

im spooked. by ur memory.

i remember alot:P

yes you do. really. omgawd. im absolutely stunned and speechless.

gosh

bahaaaaa

blackmail;)

nyeah. i wont be affect by it!! i wont!!

roflll

ur so cute

lol*

rah. those we like centuries ago

do u have a gf?

hahaha. nope.

i have to reguritate this to her

oh:(

cant let her know what a romantic u are then~

a creative one as well

LOL! i'll save you the effort!

slightly cranky

:P

hahaha!

who says i arent one now? heh.

probably, i'm even better ;D

hahahaha

alright

haha




heyo. back from kelong. kinda fun. hm. but it was really a place, time where by i totally forgot about my sucky life. i totally left it back on land. it was nice. sweet. though we did nothing special.

sigh. and here i am. back. on this one man's island. with no one, nothing. sigh. welcome back, shaun, the the boring life, your's truely. the one you hate.

nite. migraine. arh. now i know how it feels. ah.


heyo heyo heyo. today have been 1 of the happiest day in my life. a wonderful day after such a looonnggg time.

1st things 1st. i kinda handed up dvpa an hour or less late, but yea. penalised. oh well. heh.

and then, went off the wakeboard. IT WAS FREAKING FUN TODAY! i started of warming up with surface 90s and 180s, and managed them finely. so the guy(forgot his name) ask me if i wanted to learn anything else. so i asked him what shld i learn. and he taught me to edge out. which was to lean real back and pull the handle back to generate speed to do tricks. its was totally fun! the wind was wonderful lah! and so i did the bunny hop, of which the 1st few times i did it so weakly they said i din eat lunch. haha. cos i thought dun need jump high ma. LOL. but in the end, he showed, and i jumped(: i tell you. the joy of having the board out of the water for the 1st time. its undescribable. ecstatic. pure pleasure. and i did a few times, and landed properly, so tada. wheee. then after that, he asked me to try a one wake jump, which was to jump across the first wake. i tried and succeeded! landed smoothly a few times and fell a few times. but overall, it was a hell of a fun time! leaving the water and entering the air. ah. lovely.

and i made frens with my wakeboarding mate! as in, i talked to her and stuff. before that we were quite hi-bye. yay. new friends! and, huiwen. ur cousin cute lah. hahaha. and u din reply my msg. baka.

after that, liying, shumay, fel and gerald and i went balastier to have ba ku teh. was said to be one of the best in spore. haha, okay la, since ive never eaten it before. quite an interesting experince. LOL.

and i'd be off the kellong tmr! some quiet time. pooh.

so, till next week, tata! miss all my loves.


hey yo. my sis got 257 for her PSLE. that makes me officially the dumbest in my family. i'm happy yet sad. sigh. wakeboarding tmr. and wp. and dvpa. and and. so many things.

i wanna highlight my hair. i wanna get a psp. i want a proper bowling.. stuff. hm. come to think of it, probably i'd juz get a wake board. hahaaha.

okay. lala. time's runnin out. maybe ponning econs tmr cos haven even done tut. rah.


hm. it seems that all my sec sch friends are having a fun life now, having their other half's and stuffs. hahaha. except poor me. LOL. lovely, self-satisfying self. having to dwell on my imaginary, never-to-come other half.

i'm financially tight. very very tight. cos i wanna save money.

im soo soo drained. emotionally. physically. i totally dont feel like going out. all i want is to be with someone close, who i currently dont have, and juz chill in a cozy location all day. sleep, snack, play stuff or movie. i have no mood whatsoever to go sch, or town.

and to think. such a simple wish has become a dream. somewhat, impossible.

gawd. there's homework. and projs. evil intentions that suck our little happiness out of our life.

and i'm getting too lazy to answer people properly. to think of a proper answer, and answer in a right way. guess i'd be using the word i dunno more often.

guess i'll continue waiting then, the person who has yet to com'eth.












deadline for dvpa is actually fri! rarr. and i thought it was tues.

watched pursuit of happyness today. really proved why it was rated one of the favourite shows of most of my friends. lovely. it really brings one back down to earth, to realise, what a blessing it is to have everything we need, and even most of what we want in our lives. however so, it is still not over the board, but yet, still retains the connection of our everyday lives, bringing the show closer to us as we can relate to our own lives. lovely lovely.

and the little boy's cute. haha. though i still hate it when little children cry, wail and demand things unecessarily. guess cause from young i wasn't allowed to do so. i wasn't even allowed to ask why, answer back, or even ask for anything. what was given, was to be taken. no asking for more, no rejecting.

rah. my night life instincts always take control of me on week ends. grrh. and my face is becoming effing effed after being better a lil. freaaaakkk..

did wp. around 40% done. sigh.

to vans, meet up soon ya? miss you lots, and the mentals too.


hm. some time since i've been in here.

bowling. got 196. yay. unfortunately, fir pressed next game and a pictorial evidence isnt available. HOWEVERR!! i'll reach 2xx soon! heh. just you all wait. decided to put the score on the left column to keep it in check. and thanks to fir, i had ard 18 free games today, 2 drinks, and staff price on my dinner. thats abot $50 saved ;DD but hey, i give him entertainment in return right. wahahaha. so its equal! lols.

my thumb's like bigger. now. after. every. bowling. session.


finally understood 95% of what cher talked today in econs. wonderfulness achievement.


psp is still such a temptation. naruto naruto narutooooo. someone get me one and i'd be urs, though you'd have to share me with the psp.


many things coming up. wp webbie, dvpa script. darn. 2 tough ones. actually wp not hard la, its just hard to generate ideas, creative ones. those who kinda forgot something from wp can ask me, but i cant confirm i noe ya? though i dont mind trying to help, since it might spark an idea for me or something.


i dunno about my hair sia. one moment i find it acceptable, and the next, i hate it. but either way, i never found it nice. sigh. and either way, i still keep thinking about it. what a loser.


TWE'S having their concert this coming monday, gonna watch! whee.


i'm feeling sad yet, hm, a slight bit of content? i dont know. probably cos i know i could be feeling worse, thus the lil bit of content. other than that, sigh. i'm trying to think positive.


QN OF THE WEEK: do you think girls who go sentosa should at least make an effort to wear a bikini? post ur answers to the tagboard!

for those dumbbies from our class, dont need tag! rarr!! i already know your stand since u all are not wearing! pfft.


to huiwen, i rly dun mind. but i dont know how to leh. and i dont even know if its a good idea.


i think i still have some other stuffs to say, but its run out. LOL. hm. but for now, tata.


i want to be single.
i want a best friend.
i want some one who i can talk to and tell the how the world is going by around me to.
i wanna be entertained.
i wanna have my life filled up, but not stressed out.
i wanna love, a friend.
i dont wanna be bored. dont dont dont.

guess, i dont want a psp after all. i'd either get back into basketball, or get my fishies or a pet back.

mohawk? or long fringes and 2 'tails' at the side?

sigh. i'm effing bored.
really wanted to msg you, or even call you. i know i wont love you no more, but i guess i wanted to know how you are, and hear your voice.
but as usual, i'd think of all negative possibilities, and poof goes the thought.

sigh. now, where do i put the 2m tank in my 3m room? hm.


sometimes, all we need is just a little love.







but damn, we're in singapore. it just doesn't exist.



i'm freaking out of myself. uuurgh.


DECISION OF A LIFETIME.

PSP ORNOT???!!

lols. nolah. juz dun wanna waste money ah. lols. $400 can go towards my driving liscence fund =P scarely the day after i buy something happen as usual, SIAN.


i feel. i'm living my life wrongly. somewhat. or rather, to put it in another way, i'm not living the life i want. i dont fancy such a life. i want a different life.

my life is boring, senseless, empty. a 1 man island life.

guess i shall lay down some terms and try *cross fingers* to keep them right ba.

i shall quieten down and be emo again.
i shall not even think of getting into any r'l ship.
i shall get used to solitude.

and i think what will help me with the above 3 will be a psp. hm. i'll get that and i'll see how. hm.

guess its time for a change.


reds are all time favs.
blues are occasionally used.
greens are total classics.
whites are interesting occurances.

"and next time, you will suffer. you will suffer."

"everything needs money. if you dont have it, next time, you die."

"and so. you must study. why i ask you to study? its for your future. if you dont study, next time, you cant find a job. you dont have money. how are you going to have a good life? huh? if you no money, you cant buy car, you cant buy house. what are you going to do?"

"now you dont realise. you dont see. next time, then you will know."

"next time when you work, then you will know."

"i can tell you, trust me, i'm your father. will i bluff you or not" (duh, of course not. you're not even right in the first place)

"here got problem, everywhere got problem. dont be stupid. stupid is, dont go and do stupid thing."

classic no.1 -" you see. you got see ministers/(people who are recognised) pierce earing/(dye hair, cool hairstyle, tattoo, etc)? got ornot? you see ministers dye their hair? got? never right"

from e prev classic, part 2. "you see all those people. all those ah bengs. all look like what. and you see. the ceo who went to jail. see his hair? see he pierce here pierce there. see. thats why he go jail"(yes, to him, its because of the piercings and tatts and dyed hair that get you a tix to jail, NOT your wrong doing, all you little people out there)

and you see. now i tell you, you dont listen. huh, dont listen. next time your children, huh, they dont listen to you."

and specially to my bro, he loves to say this "dont be like shaun. look at him now."



bloody hell. he just said that my bro was trying to go against him.and all my bro did was to ask if he could pierce his ear. go against. being defiant.

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thanks one and all for your kind attention. weve come to the end of today's "father's famous quotes". thank you, and our next appearance should come pretty soon, though it will depend on when he fells we're "going against" him again. we hope to see you nxt time. thanks!


its lonely time yet again! and paula's walk away reminds me of you.

was taking bus back from wakeboarding juz now. and it passed by the siglap area again. rah.

the disappointment? or the relief.

gosh. what am i thinking.

had a wonderful ride today. did surface 90 and surface 180, pretty much easily now. managed a little jump across the wake. haha. i flew! ;DD once. but, YAY. once. i jumped.

and i lasted for 1.5 entire laps across the kallang river. whoo. longest ever. fun-ness.

lalalalaa. how i wished i were in jc. at least i'd still have a class who would have something called a class outing. now, its always random people outing. sigh. remember those times where everyone wore the same uniform and went out together after school. ah. miss that.

there's alot i miss about the past and nothing i look forward to in the future. probably i should fall into an eternal dream like that in shumay's dvpa proj. lols.


i wonder if i should talk to you on the 26th-28th. or you will even wanna talk to me when we meet. i even dreamt of walking down orchard road with you.

i wonder if you felt anything when we left. but then again, even after you left, you still called for me after that.

i wonder if i should even talk to you, ever again. i dont know the consequences, though i know the severity of it if all goes wrong.

i wonder, if you still remember me.

i wonder why we even started. we were not even supposed to know each other. your hair cut, the band dinner clothings, dinner at parkway's pastamania, the pictures, and there we were, hand in hand.

i dont even know what struck us to even think of getting together.

remember the lady, the hairdresser?

as i sat there. after a random sat class, i happen to feel bored. and you happen to be next to me. and you said you were going to cut your hair. and i followed cos i had nothing to do. something i had never done before, have have never done ever since. i sat on the empty chair, spacing out, listening to my ipod. and the hairdresser commented, "wah. your boyfriend very guai hor. sit and wait for you to cut finish." and we hurriedly corrected, "nolah, we're not together."

and that's, how it all started. you, suddenly came into my life.

before, i couldnt see you. even if you were in front of me, all i saw was the people around you.
but then, after that very afternoon, you became someone. someone i knew. all i saw, was people surrounding you.



but now, i wonder.

i wonder, if you even think of me.

the least.

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it is no longer painful, its become numb. but somehow, i dont know. i miss you?

sigh, not again.

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life's boring. so boring that im starting to think of negative stuffs again. my mind's swayyyinggg.

i swear the tears are back.

and i will only maple when i think of you. cos its the only thing that helps me get you out of my mind.


sch's out. as in, mst's over. whee.

wp was a loser. mst weightage is only 10% of total. rah.

hm. life's boring. i need someone. sigh.

how how how?

even the day gives way to the night, the rain stops to shine, everything ends. sooner or later lah. glad it din go awry.

bleach like. dun leh. can sleep lor. wth. naruto is still the best. sigh.








argh. since i'm alredy at episode 30, why bother to resist the impossible temptation. grrh. HEREE I COMMEEEE!!


have been watching shipuuden. and i swear its 283947329402 times BETTER than season 1. OHMYLORD.

its freaking freaking freaking nice. TOTALLY OWNS SEASON1 HANDS DOWN.

its so addictive i cant stop! currently at 28. argh. watched 19episodes today =X

time to go hunting for another time killer.

hm. other than that. went through econs tonite. rah. should pass, i hope?

oh and forgot to mention, i bought my bowling ball on, lemme see. monday, that was.. 29th oct. hahah. just for memories.

lovlieeess. lalalaaa.


doing wp just kills me. it reminds me of killing Odex.


LEFT AND RIGHT. my say.




the differences between lefties and right handers.i just read an article about it, and to merely summarise it, it is believed that lefties brains are more 'freely developed' as compared to right handers' brain, which is the 'standard' type. this allows sort of slight 'modification', resulting in weirder stuffs, which may be good or bad(like leonardo da vinci, who is an artistic AND scientic genius, but also gay). haha.

and the ratio of righties to lefties is 9:1, or 10% are lefties.

and, so where do i have something to say about. nope, i do agree that lefties have a different way and stuff, their better in different areas. however, there was this test where a black image of a ballerina was spinning, and the question was if she was spinning clockwise or anticlockwise. rightbrainers(lefties) would choose clockwise, while leftbrainers(righties) would pick anticlockwise. however, when i saw it, it apparently was turning anticlockwise for me. why? it took me some considerable thinking and focussing for me to see it in the other view.

judging from the table up there, we see the differences observed between leftbrainers and rightbrainers. however, i feel that all research and whatever yada yada is almost completely wrong. whats the problem? i feel that today's society has it all screwed up. today's society forces us ALL to become leftbrainers, in order to succeed. from young we do maths and sciences. do you see philosophy and religion in our pri6 texts? even if we do have in the near future, its weightage will not be as strong as that of maths and sciences. thus, society nowadays forces us, lefties who are rightbrainers, to switch to leftbrainers in order to be a 'better person', to 'excel'.

therefore, i feel that its no longer what is the difference between lefties and righties, but rather, how a single particular leftie individual is able to adapt and transform into a rightie due to what evolution of society has determined as positive and negative for us. one who can transform well will adapt well, while those who arent able to adapt will posses strong other characteristics.

rah. feel like a professor ;DD if only i was. hahaha.

and damn. i was searching for newwriting. how the hell did this come? argh.




yay. hahahaha.

9th and 10th screwed up. rarr.


i'm just about reaching my brim, my top.

its about time you count your blessing, and dont push your luck any further.

one more slight twist, and its gonna come.

i swear it'll be something no one has ever seen, and dont blame me if it haunts you for life.

god bless the unlucky one.

pray you dont cry.