have you ever had the feeling. when something let you down once, but yet. you return to it, only to be disappointed again countless times. maple did it.

MAPLE KILLED ME. AGAIN.

sigh i dunno what to say lah. stuffs happen, argh. maple, i wanna move on.


i've realised. sometimes, all we need is some quiet time alone. i dont know why, but i'm feeling pressured in everything i do. including things that are supposed to help me relax and soothen up. but. i just dont know. why why why? why does it happen? and i hate to be alone. its now a phobia. i'm scared of it. but god knows. such a fool he's playing me like. and, sometimes, i'd just need it to be with myself and clear up.

ARGH. i'd really wish life was just a simple tale, with a simple going and a nice ending. but no, it will never be. it will be filled with twists and turns, smiles that turn to hatred, love that came from the heart, that eventually killed my heart. at least in my life. and in this very story book, till now, love still doesn't exist and it stands by the saying that it never will. people say, i just haven found the right one. i say, i will never find anyone.

its alright. if time is what you need, u've got it. if friends are what you need, you got them too. ~