when life screws you, what do you do?

cry in a corner and feel like someone who have just lost it all, and evaluate how bad it is or it will ever get?

or will you stand up, and face life with a strong self, and brave the storm to look into the future?

yes, we should all wake up from the past and any horrible experiences. to live life as it is.

bad? definitely.

hopeless? never.

but nothing gives us the right to break down, to cry in dispair and let our minds be filled with nothing but negative. no one's life is all sweet sailing, some just have it better than the others.

you can choose not to say anything, to shut yourself up in a clamshell, but it doesn't mean that no one will be there for you. everyone will have the mindset that if i were to burden the whole thing alone, only i would feel the pain. WRONG. by doing so, you have just elevated the pain in those around you. inferiority, they will feel. lack of trust, belief. friends are made for a reason, not for show. friends are there for a reason, not to fake. friends ask for a reason, not out of boredom. friends care for a reason, cos they love you too.

i watched high school musical 2, and expectedly, it wasnt better than the original. but hey, it did drive a message into me. i thought about my life, my future. what am i gonna do about it. some people have theirs all planned out already, others are preparing for them, and a minority are even carrying out their plans even as i think. but what am i doing here, wasting my time, doing absolutely nothing efficeint that even aids my future the least bit?

but i think again, not as an excuse, but rather, as an attempt to find an answer. what CAN i do? people say much things when this point is brought out. but i ask, does that really really help?

and back now, i already have problems with my life. studies, financial, friendship, affairs of the heart. its tough, but i guess ive to keep going. i dont know the answers, and i dont know if i ever will.

in this life, somethings are lived only once. only once.

but what if we dont even get the chance?

argh. i dunno what i;m talking. just feeling emo. sigh.

pick urself up,
b'cos i know ur hurt.
pick urself up,
out from the dirt.

its pain i see,
when it's ur love u've lost.
it's you i'll free,
even if it's my life it'll cost.

i promised i'd always,
be there forever.
dark skies, and fear and rain and storm
best frens we'll be, now till winter.

-to be completed cos my mind seems shutt-eded offed.-

argh. just cant do anything right today. argh argh arghh!!!