how are some people such fucking arseholes, while others aren't? from today onwards, i'd be different. i've tried to be nice to others, and even to those i hate, i tried not to hae that much. or maybe, i just flare up less. but no. i realised. i've awoken. being nice isnt the way anymore. being nice will just result in people stabbing your arse without you knowing, fucking ur life upside down. from today on, i wont give a damn if you'd be hurt by what i say. not a damn.

its tiring you know. when such people invade your life. they fake such enthusiasm, and trying their very earnestly to potray some image that they deem satisfactory to fit in in today's society. but holy smokes. its a total different change when it comes to project work and stuffs. when we're going out, all one does is to heck caringly include himself into other's lives, presuming with much confidence and little respect for others that he, very well, will be well accepted and people never mind him within themselves. but hoho, thats where you're wrong. thats where you screw up. thats where you're fucking wrong. off the throne, into the dungeon. thats why i misread you.

but you see. i wld never have mind another person. but, when work comes, ah hah, along comes your alter ego. your split personality takes over, and you dissipitate into another character. the cartoon you are. work? nah. phone's ringing, but i ain't picking. sleeping early the night before an unstarted project due within 12hrs? that's nice. wonderfully fatabulous.

dont blame others when you fuckin din do anything. din contribute a shit. work is work. you blamed the others who pushed you before. with the benefit of the doubt from me, i ignored and succumbed. but hey, at least its all out before the start of yr2.

at least, that gives me the chance to add your name next to the hated, the scorned and the bitched. since, you pretty well fit in.

fuck.