life has been pretty much.. redundant these days? going to sch, doing nothing, yada yada.

its a dead life i'm living, all i want everyday is to reach home and see if my sis is doing ok with her exams and if she needs help for the following day's ppr. ah, my motivation in life.

why is my face so screwed?
why is my hair so fyucky?
why am i so short?
why am i born like that?

things on my buying list:
- topman simple plain tees/sleeveless
- a num racerback
- hair growth solution/pills, which i think will be at the bottom of my list.
- a new face. can buy ma?
- a 300 score for my sis? can? pweeez.
- prezzies for my sis amounting to almost a 100 bucks, cos my big mouth promised a lil too much.
-an anti-gloom/depression/sadness/emo pill.

argh. its sch tmr again. grrh. irritance. totally nt enjoying it. hate hate hate.

some people have to just move on in life and drop whatever they are carrying on. just, drop. forget it. totally. what ur doing is like smoking. as in literally, smoking. u noe, putting the stupid peice of shit stick into ur mouth and killing urself. yes, you are, in one way or another. ur killing urself, strangling. somethings are not meant to be, so dont. whats over is over. i never believe in reinstating the past status, if u get what i mean. get ur life back, with or without some anew. dnt drag on. you know ur waging a losing battle, and ur dying bcos of it. so stop it before you really fall into the hands of death. whats the fucking point. if u noe who i mean, hope i din get e stuffs wrong. if i did, sry. if not, pls. do some thing lahhh.

rarrh. whatever, please ignore the above. its bullshit.


i'm dying. no, i really am. and no, there is no scientific proof. and yes, its just my life-long wish.