well, how do i say this.

firstly, econs paper is over. surprisingly manageable.

my mum just spent almost $1k on facial sessions and products for me alone. i dont know how to put this. but. on one hand, i feel thankful, but yet, i felt it wasnt really necessary. i'd still go to school, take my exams and live life as it is, with or without a better face. probably id lose some friends who detest my looks and probably will remain single, but, thats about it i guess. i'd still live life as it is, without spending 1k. but anyhow, i really dunno. sigh. honestly, even such things stress me out pretty much, cos i dont know how to react.

then again, this is partly due to the fact that i know for the next few months, my expenditure toll on my mum will increase. why? wakeboarding competition's soon in may, and they are thinking of having 2 practice sessions a week instead of 1. which translates to a lot more fees. sigh. and the dvpa group lost our boom mike pole(yes, the pole alone, only), which is unfortunately not any cheaper than $100 each either. and new year's coming. argh.

financial stress

dvpa proj. to date, we still have scenes not filmed finish. yes, not completed filming. we're the last group, the slowest. we're the only one who lost something. and i personally think we are not doing a fantastic job either. that's what happen when a 5man team, with an additional idiot who not only does nothing, but instead, adds MORE problems to the team, tries to complete a 6man job. how lovely. and i feel sad for ms kwa. she really thought well of us, but we couldnt even do it right.

and then, thr's like millions of other projs like web publishing which isn't easy, and the never ending list of tests and exams, namely econs. such terror and stress. argh. its all a burden.

cope shaun, cope with it, just like everyone else is. bloody hell.

study stress

i so shall not talk about emotional stress. it will totally tear me down when i realise everything is burning to the ground. finding a bestfriend, soulmate is like waiting for the last project to be over. it will never come and there never will be one.

emotional stress

i love my life. i really do. but, if only it isnt how it is now.