i've lived a life
of laughter and horror
filled least with peace
or happiness of the holy choir.

i've reached an age
many call a stage
in life the shots you call
will now bring onthe great downfall.

a lonely soul
on this fateful day
disastered by choices
with countless wrong turns
wrecked my ship, my life and mind
making me dread the days i'll find.

the ones i love
one two and four
those were the days
but all i want is more.

they say its gone
we'll all move on
but what do i do
when i hate what i'm going through.

you cant board my plane
if the ticket hasn't your name
but who's the loser
when there isnt even a queue.

i've not smoked, pierced or tatt-ed
neither have i drank my soul away
but this place where i live
will never see the light and will never be free.

the heart's fondest memories
by the smiles tightest bonds
apart from them, one or two
none knows my heart is true.

our skin may sag
our thoughts may clear
age and time may make us queer
but never my tears for those who're dear.

this phrases suck
i cant get them right
all i'm trying to say
'that i miss them all

who dont know that
even a negative connotation
they might have of me
but still i treasured
and definitely still miss
all that they have given
and shared and kept
the pieces that filled this puzzle
whose outcome god knows
every touch every smile
has been clenched with pride
in this eighteen year old trove
with lock, key and an eleven letter pass
i love you, you know i do.

so far so good
or bad and sad
whichever you prefer
to lie or a facade
but its 2 more to
chapter two point zero.

so welcome to my life
as i sleep through tomorrow.

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honestly, it really a emo-ish night tonight. i'm thinking and missing a hell load of people. all i really want to meet up, see them and talk to them. i really miss them alot. i have not talked to anyone i can clique with for a long time. sigh. oh well, mum great idea of SP. what can i say.

i'll cry tonight, because of the people i love.