the following is coloured in white for a reason. if you feel assured that you wont be affected after reading the following text, feel free to highlight and read. if you think it might, facebook-ing might work for you instead. be mature enough to make a decision. and be mature enough to accept whatever outcome.

whee. it doesnt even change abit. we quarrel over the littlest things. i try to tell you nicely, you insist that you're nothing but right, i insist that you should try to look from my view, you ignore and only see it your way, i give up, you apologise.

too late.

that's how it always is. and how it always will be.

if only you skipped the in between and stop saying totally irritation-inducing stuff like, oh the world doesnt know me or how i am. oh, no one understands me. oh, that's what you think. i'm hinting that you're wrong, but i dont tell you that you are wrong, but i wont tell you the truth either because i wanna piss you off.

and then, there's more. like, oh, when we quarrel, i didnt say you're wrong. but we are quarreling, someone's at fault, and i'm not wrong. but, i still didnt say you're at fault. so if you ever think that i put the blame on you, i can say, i didnt say that.

i really wonder. if you can insist on yourself so well, why cant you even make ANY freaking simple decisions? simple ones. yes or no? if you could think of yourself as such a complex creature that nobody actually understands you well, then what's a minor decision? you're talented in argueing and putting people off but lack common sense? is that it? cos that's what's coming through.

and please. you're only human. i have only been avoiding this arguement all the while by agreeing with you. you think you're very different? you think just because you like things that arent the norm makes you highly different. wake up for goodness sake. we're all human. you're not as different and as special as you think. what i liken your mentality to is that of a kid, who think that he's special hidden powers or something. as a result, they think they have something different from everyone else. i doubt i'm very far off.

accept it that you're normal. everyone is, with just a little tweaks here and there. you arent really something or someone special that no one will ever understand you. so stop going against the flow. for once. for ever.

and all your reasons/excuses. the one i heard most? because of past bad experience. SHITTIEST excuse of them all. there's no lousier excuse available ever in the entire language system. you're just making a laughing stock out of yourself. past experience? er, hello? get over it? duh. you're no child already. stop crying over spilt milk. accept that some OTHER guy did whatever whatever to you, and REALISE that others wont. if i scolded you a slut because my ex was a slut, would it be fair? no. similarly, your ex threatening you whatever childish rubbish doesnt mean i'll do any of it. if fact, i wont entertain it if it came from you, either.

argh. wth.